There was this guy who was my cryin' shoulder for some couple of months then I was his too, later on. Helping me out with my problems (take note, a heart problem). We always text and chat for a long time. Exchanging of thoughts. From the Happiest moments of our lives 'til the worst heartaches. We shared everything that we have in our lives. Whenever we have problems, just a text away would do. I already saw the good and the bad side of him. I saw the real HIM in a way that he was angry, happy, bored, sad, broken, problematic, inspired, drunk, tipsy, horny, tardy, lonely, mad etc. We did some arguments too. Actually, I can't call US as just friends. Maybe a very, super close friends may do. But as I reached this feeling, I was looking for more, more than a friend. It came to a point that I was confused about us. Confused of everything. I started to think of him everyday, every hour, every minute and second. I used to act jealous to some girls that he wanted and he had. Then, I started asking myself, what's this? why am I acting like this? and in the first place, I do not have the right to act like that. Though whenever I got jealous about something or someone, I am not shy to tell him that I'm jealous (it's okay with him). But when there was a particular moment that I can't control myself but to act very inappropriately and that made him mad at me but after that we fixed everything.
I jumped into conclusion that, I fell out of love.. I don't know if what I felt was true.. or just an infatuation... I want to tell him about this but I am too afraid of what could happen. I'm afraid to be rejected by him. I'm afraid that the day would come that he will no longer communicating with me. Yes, I know him. But, I don't know if I really know him in this matter. :-(
There was this guy who was my cryin' shoulder for some couple of months then I was his too, later on. Helping me out with my problems (take note, a heart problem). We always text and chat for a long time. Exchanging of thoughts. From the Happiest moments of our lives 'til the worst heartaches. We shared everything that we have in our lives. Whenever we have problems, just a text away would do. I already saw the good and the bad side of him. I saw the real HIM in a way that he was angry, happy, bored, sad, broken, problematic, inspired, drunk, tipsy, horny, tardy, lonely, mad etc. We did some arguments too. Actually, I can't call US as just friends. Maybe a very, super close friends may do. But as I reached this feeling, I was looking for more, more than a friend. It came to a point that I was confused about us. Confused of everything. I started to think of him everyday, every hour, every minute and second. I used to act jealous to some girls that he wanted and he had. Then, I started asking myself, what's this? why am I acting like this? and in the first place, I do not have the right to act like that. Though whenever I got jealous about something or someone, I am not shy to tell him that I'm jealous (it's okay with him). But when there was a particular moment that I can't control myself but to act very inappropriately and that made him mad at me but after that we fixed everything. 
I jumped into conclusion that, I fell out of love.. I don't know if what I felt was true.. or just an infatuation... I want to tell him about this but I am too afraid of what could happen. I'm afraid to be rejected by him. I'm afraid that the day would come that he will no longer communicating with me. Yes, I know him. But, I don't know if I really know him in this matter. :-( 
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