jEaLouSy iS thE BesT poLicy!

                                                            for you! 

i didn't mean to let you feel that I'm jealous.. knowing that you watched movie with your EX, and you were happy telling me what happened that day.. I can't control what I'm feeling.. yeah, maybe we can call it a MOOD SWING..BUT,,, don't you get it? I'm jealous.. though how i reacted was inappropriate but can't you feel it? I know you're not numb.. I'm just wondering why are you like that? have you try to ask yourself why am I acting like this? I don't want you to do some stuff that will make you come to the point that you have to do this in return for some reason that I've been a good friend to you.. It's not like that..I know you're not like that.. but i just don't want you to think that way.. I know you are open- minded bout this kind of thing..I only want you to understand what i feel.. I don't want you to feel the same not because you feel pity for me..

I may not tell you this in a serious manner..but have you notice it? whenever i tell you that I'm jealous,, just for once or twice, did you think that i am not kidding? CAN'T YOU READ MY MIND? nor my ACTIONS?

I wish you'll know about this soon..and by then, I am no longer your secret lover..a martyr.. :'(

Late Last Night

Late last night I set on my steps and cried. Wasn't nobody gone, neither had nobody died. I was cryin' cause you're leaving... leaving my heart alone and lonely. It makes me feel so empty. You looked at me with tears in your eyes, its just you want to say something. But I knew it, you really want to stay. You said distance is not reason for you to stop loving me true. I really want to believe you then. Every time I saw you, every time I saw your smiling face, you didn't know that you're getting my heart bit by bit. For all these years had passed. Years that we wasted time, hoping we're together. Sharing thoughts and wishes. Late last night, I cried but with happiness in my heart. I thank God cause He had crossed the paths our lives in order for us to know each other well. And I'm thankful to you for making another chapter of my life meaningful and colorful 'coz I like just the way you are!!! Funny, but one day I woke up, my heart says I want you, and realizes truly I'm falling for the man they called "THE SINGER". The man who opens my heart once again. The man who takes my fears of loving once again. The man who made me cried "LATE LAST NIGHT"....