jEaLouSy iS thE BesT poLicy!

                                                            for you! 

i didn't mean to let you feel that I'm jealous.. knowing that you watched movie with your EX, and you were happy telling me what happened that day.. I can't control what I'm feeling.. yeah, maybe we can call it a MOOD SWING..BUT,,, don't you get it? I'm jealous.. though how i reacted was inappropriate but can't you feel it? I know you're not numb.. I'm just wondering why are you like that? have you try to ask yourself why am I acting like this? I don't want you to do some stuff that will make you come to the point that you have to do this in return for some reason that I've been a good friend to you.. It's not like that..I know you're not like that.. but i just don't want you to think that way.. I know you are open- minded bout this kind of thing..I only want you to understand what i feel.. I don't want you to feel the same not because you feel pity for me..

I may not tell you this in a serious manner..but have you notice it? whenever i tell you that I'm jealous,, just for once or twice, did you think that i am not kidding? CAN'T YOU READ MY MIND? nor my ACTIONS?

I wish you'll know about this soon..and by then, I am no longer your secret lover..a martyr.. :'(